Life as I know it..

I’ve been having reoccurring dreams in which I’m partially blind. Not to the point of not being able to see objects, because I always know exactly what’s going on in the dream, but it’s moreso the kind of blind where I’m tripping and falling and my vision is almost fogged over. Rather than being able to do things clearly without interruption, I find myself roaming around, almost being pulled through them by a force outside of myself. It’s come up 3 or 4 times now within the past week and I was really curious as to what it could mean. I did some digging and this is what I found:

Being blind illustrates that you consider some elements of your life is uncontrollable.  This dream also indicates that you may have impulses to try to improve yourself.

A dream involving you walking down the street blind means the need to get to the bottom of a situation in that it is really difficult to understand how you may do that without actually having any guidance from anyone.

This dream also signifies that you are unable to recognise situations around you and that you may need spiritual guidance.  The key message of this dream is to meditate in order to find the answers.

In all honesty, I have felt a little loss of control over my own life as of late. It seems like everything is just up in the air, and it’s terrifying. Not in the sense that my needs won’t be provided for, but in the sense that every direction I thought my life was going was thrown out the window and now I’m in a new state with virtually no friends, no job, and no direction. I have sent an email to a school nearby to talk to them about enrollment, which would be a huge step. They called me back once but I was on the mountain so they have yet to contact me again. Hopefully they do that soon so I can figure out which steps I need to get my shit on lock. I feel like I’ll be a lot more okay with my situation after I figure that out because as of now, I feel like I’m in shambles just trying to pick up my pieces and reassemble them into a smooth operata again. Basically lacking peace of mind is making my insides a wreck and it isn’t comforting in my brain half the time. Trying to limit my emotions and focus solely on completing my schooling is my main thing right now.. I don’t have much else than that. (That fact alone is what’s making my insides quiver.) Having so many exciting plans to look forward to to having very limited plans makes me want to curl up inside of myself and hibernate for a while, but for me that’s the worst thing to do because it’s much too easy to fall into my little dreamworlds there. And that’s just not safe in my current state. I need distraction.